Parentals

It gets under my skin when a "part time" parent, (a single parent that splits there time with the baby mama/daddy) says they need a "break". I use to be one of these parents, so I don't have much room to talk, but I can say I'm not one of those parents anymore. Let me add to that, I have my child every single day. Over the past few weeks, ever Friday and Saturday night I have been home, with Kensley. Looking back, do I regret it? Did I miss out on something more important? Absolutely not, but there are times I look back and wish I WAS at home with her instead of some place else. Most "single" parents have a break every other weekend and often a night or two a week, am I right? Recently, VERY recently, I come to realize how selfish I was. How Kensley ONLY had me, and that she needed me all the time. She loves to go and stay with her Grammy, but she always wants me to come pick her up, usually she's already in bed, but I still do anyway. For someone who only sees their kid a few days say they need a break really just rubs me the wrong way. Hey, you should have thought about that before you had a child. Put your child first. Period. The End. 

End Rant.

Oh, wait... Also all you single Mama and Paps out there.. STOP criticizing the other parent for the SAME thing you do.

Happy Monday! : )

Day 13 & 14

Day 13 Regret

I don't want to have any regrets from this point on in my life. I know that I probably will, but I am going to try really hard not to. 

I regret a lot. A lot of which we won't talk about or we'd be here all day. But one thing I regret the most is not spending the time I should have with my little brother. 

I have seen my brother twice in the past 16 months. It sucks to be away from someone you love for that long. If I had known things would be like this, I promise you, my priorities would have been spending as much time with him instead of worrying about what all my friends were doing or what I would be doing on a Friday night. 

Day 14 What's on your iPod

Country, country and more country. 

I'm obsessed with country music.  But the most recent I bought was Blake Shelton's new album. I must say, I am VERY impressed. I'm a huge fan of Kenny, Eric, The King, or Gary Allan, never ever disappointed. I get pumped when they come out with a new album. Blake Shelton? Ehhh, not so much. I like several of his old stuff, Austin especially, but this is one album I LOVE.

Also, I've got tons of Kenny, because everyone likes Kenny Chesney, especially when the weather warms up. I don't care who you are. 

I have every song Eric Church has ever recorded, all of Lady A's music, Jana Kramer and her beau BG, The King, Darius, also one of my favs, plus his Hootie stuff, you see where this is going. 

I may have MAYBE 10 songs that are not country, and they are all old school stuff. 

Link Up

Link Up from Jake & Holly

1. If calories didn't count, I would eat... Chocolate Chocolate cake, Banana cream cheesecake, birthday cake ice cream.. can you see where this is going?

2. On my Prom night.... I took a freshman to my Sr. Prom. He was probably my best friend at the time, so I get a free pass right?

3. When I go to the store, I always buy... juice box and pizza rolls... my kid lives off of it.

4. Family functions typically... Lots of laughs, and now usually "Let's find someone to set Nikki up with" Blah! I usually end up leaving the room and playing with the kiddos, that's my favorite thing to do anyway!

5. I think my blog readers... are probably all my family or other's just being noisy.

6. I'd much rather be..... I'm sure you all know my answer... On the beach!

We are some beach lovin fools

7. I have an obsession with.... Shopping, social media, Country music, and the beach. 

8. My work friends.... think I'm half black.. for reasons that will remain a secret.

9. When I created my Facebook account.... I was in high school and it was the thing to do.. Now since my parents live 132198131235489 miles away it's so I can keep up with them and they can keep up with Kensley.

10. My least favorite word is... I have a lot. 

11. I really don't remember.... what my life was like before I had my sidekick

12. Justin Bieber.... is pretty awesome. I don't care who you are, you all know a beibs tune. 

I'm a M-F blogger for sure.

So, my weekends are pretty slammed. So I'm a blogger slacker on Saturday and Sunday.

Since I will be out of pocket for the next few weeks beginning Friday, we did the whole Easter thing this weekend. 

I swear I love that sweet baby more than I've ever loved anything in my entire life. 

Day 10 Daily Routine

Our daily routine is rush, rush, rush.  No, seriously. No matter how early I wake up, I feel like I will be late. 

The only routine we have is school/work everyday and bath time and story time before bed... 

Day 11 Last Book Read

Safe Haven. Amazing read. If you haven't read the book you should, then you should watch the movie. It's awesome. 

Day 12 Something you Miss

This I could write on all day long....

I miss Summer time. I miss the beach. I miss my toes in the sand and the smell of salt water.
I miss my baby brother, and my mama and papa. 
I miss my best friend. 
I miss my granddaddy. 
I miss the way things were this time last year. and the way there were when I was a child. 
I miss a lot of things and for a lot of different reasons... 

Day 8 & 9

Day 8 Pet Peeves 

• Sorry parents are at the top of this list for a number of reasons. Most of which you probably already know. 
• Slow drivers
• People who say one thing and do another
• Fake people
• Two faced people
• People who are late
• People who spell words weird like yu or kewl. JUST STOP.

Obviously if you know me well you know my list of pet peeves is a lot longer, but I pretty well covered the basics. 

Day 9 Bucket List

• Live at the beach
• Spend some time on Cinnamon Bay
• Own a boat, A BIG ONE
• Learn to play the guitar
• Visit All of Europe, Figi, Bora Bora, All the Virgin Islands
• Grow old with someone I love
• Make an important decision with a coin toss
• Have a few, or maybe even just one more little rugrat
• Meet my favorite artist, the list is long, but I'm slowly marking them off
• Go to the Braves Spring Training

I could spend all day on this.... 

Parenthood and Dating

I came across this article, and it's a topic that always comes up with single parents. 
So, I thought I'd voice my opinion. As if you care ;)

So, after dealing with a few baby mama's and being one cray cray one myself, I use to always say that I wouldn't date anyone with kids again. Pretty selfish, considering I have one little princess of my own. I may be cutting my nose off despite my face, in this blog post, but it's how I feel. (Big Cheese Emoji Inserted Here)

My kid is my whole world. You don't have to be around me very long to know this. She will always come first in my life. There have been many many times especially since she is getting older that I have had to miss out on something I wanted to do because she had a dance, or play, or whatever else going on. I won't miss out on anything she does, mainly because I'm the only parent she has and my parents aren't really here to fill in if I were to miss anything like my grandparents were. I don't want to miss anything in her life. I want her to always remember me being at every event in her life. There are so many children that don't have that, and it really breaks my heart to even think about it. With all that being said, I often feel like I don't have enough time for a dating life. I will start dating someone and they will want to go out of town for a weekend or something and I won't do it. I have huge separation anxiety, I guess. Anyway, guys that don't have kids don't really understand that whole, "responsibility" thing. They can go and do whatever they please at the drop of a hat. I on the other hand have to make sure there's not anything going on with dance or church or school, who will pick her up or keep her, etc. and  more times than not doesn't work out. I had a very brief friendship with a guy and every time I couldn't see him 27 days in a row, he'd throw a fit. Okay, in all honesty I rarely ever saw him two days in a row, but I have a kid. So that's pretty much impossible unless said beau is going to be around the princess, and that ain't happening unless I'm head over heels for someone. Sorry not sorry. So now that I've come to the conclusion guys without kids have no clue what it's like, it's time to address the guys that do. Most men, guys, boys, whatever you wanna call them don't have the parenting skills women have. Period. Sorry dads. A very, very, very, very few do. Being a good dad is the biggest turn on EVA! Period. You can be Charles Esten fine, and serenade me all night long with a good tune on your six string, but if you're a sorry dad that's as far as it's gonna go. If he's a good dad, your time together is going to be limited. This I have found out. I'm spoiled and needy and a brat, so this is tough for me. But If I want someone to respect the parent I am, I have to do the same. I'd rather have someone who is going to be a good dad over a dead beat any day. 

Day 7 Your Dream Job

My dream job goes right along with my "dream life" ha

My dream job would be to take pictures on the beach. I mean let's face it, they have to make a killing because you always see those families in the "white" beach pictures and there is always beach weddings. I love taking pictures and I love the beach. It would be a win win situation for me for sure. In order to do that I would need to live at the beach, another win. 

Today was Kensley's very first picture day and after I dropped her off this morning it hit me, and cried all the way to work. Go figure. She's growing up way too fast. I swear she's probably the smartest kid I know, with the smartest mouth too. I know you all are probably wondering where she gets it, right? Anyway, hug your little ones tight because you'll blink and they'll be grown. Last night I was playing with Will and he's just a little over 2 and I swear it seems like last week he was cruising around on his knees and couldn't even walk much less speak. Now, those little words he says, "I luz you" melts my freaking heart. It's crazy that your heart can love the way I love that baby. Love that sweet boy with my whole heart. 

Days 3-6 because I'm a slacker.

Day 3 What makes you happy

Lots of things make me happy, I'm not hard to please. (Okay, that's a lie) But as long as I get my way, I"m usually pretty happy and my way is usually the right way, so everyone wins. I kid, I kid. Geez. What makes me happy: Everything my kid does makes me happy. Correction: almost everything. The beach, sunshine, new music, seeing other people happy,beach,  Will Suttle & Little Linlee, food, road trips, Bama football, actually bama anything, beach, Braves baseball, online shopping, beach, family time, did I say the beach??? I have a ton of other things that make me happy, that's just to top it off. 

Day 4 Favorite Childhood Memory 

I have a ton. All pretty much involve my Granddaddy. I swear I loved that man more than life, he was my hero. I hate the fact Kensley didn't get to know him, if he was here she would be way more spoiled than she already is, if that's even possible. But, My grandparents usually took, me, Marla and Matthew to the beach several times a year. I always remember all of us looking like Indian children, staying on the beach all day, which i still do, ordering big foot pizza's from dominoes  getting TCBY ice cream, crab hunting every night and of course put put and go carts. I still do these exact same things every time I'm at the beach. I hope Kensley remembers these beach trips the way I do. 

Day 5 Favorite movies you never get tired of watching

The Holiday
Hunger Games
Gone With The Wind
PS I Love You
Notebook
Charlie St. Cloud
Any Disney Movie
Green Mile
Shawshank Redemption
Ok, my list is long enough.. No where near close to the end. 

Day 6 Your last random act of kindness

No biggie, but was my last random act of kindness  I gave a co worker, who is sick my last can of chicken noodle soup, and went on my lunch and bought a can from the gas station for 3.79$ It's like .60 in the grocery store.

Now, I'm caught up. NO more slacking. Ha. 

Day 2 &&& a little other thrown in

Favorite Quotes

I should probably just share a link to my twitter page...

But, I will post a few I guess..

Faith in God, includes faith in his timing.
Because I constantly remind  myself things will work out the way they are suppose to in HIS timing. 

Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess, just breathe and have faith that everything will work out for the best. 
Sometimes your mind is your worst enemy. 

This is by far one of my favorites, and my newest tat. 

In case Seth every reads this, which I'm sure he never will, but last night we went to watch him play. Btw, I love kids, especially if they are related to me, and little boys, so we spend a lot of time with him and Drew. I love watching them play. I was the same way with Matthew, especially before I had Kensley and got busy being a mom. ANYWAY, (ADD kicked in) he did great last night! Aunt Sandy had to be in town with Andrew and Uncle Chris had to work so I got to be a baseball mama for the night and I sooo enjoyed it despite how friggin cold it was. Kuddos to you Seth if you ever read this, you did great last night!

Luke Bryan played at the wharf last night, I planned on going a few months back.. then with work and everything else it didn't look like I was going to get to go, then everything worked out, so pumped about going and then they tell us we have recital pictures at dance Saturday. BOOOO! Oh well, that's part of being a parent I guess. My sweet grandmother offered to take her of course, but there's no way I'm going to miss that, plus my grandmother is under way too much anyway, but like always she tries to do everything for everyone else. God blessed me so much by putting that woman in my life. I have come to realize not everyone has a family as good mine. 

So since it's going to be so a beautiful weekend after we knock out pics Saturday you will find these girls outside for sure! 

Link up

I'm doing my first link up just because I"m bored and I want to blog like all these ladies I read about all day!

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1. People always tell me.... that I have a beautiful daughter

2. In the movie based on my life...(skip)

3. Typically, I end up regretting.... sent text messages. 

4. I always ask to leave off the.... tomato YUCK

5. Kim and Kanye really...are who?

6. My Parents always reminded me... to put God first and always tell the truth

7. Every single day I..... tweet, and listen to country music. 

8. This one time in College.. we aren't even going there. 

9. My grossest habit is... not wearing socks

10. My latest white lie was... "good to see you too" maybe I won't have to go through that again for a while. 

11. I know all the words to... almost every country song. 

12. When I grow up... I want to still be my daughter's best friend.. and also live at the beach. 

13. Sexy time is... ehhhh

14. I will never, ever... being a shitty parent. EVER.

15. I think it's hilarious.. social media. I know i'm not the only one who thinks you're "cray cray" honey. 

31 days of blogging

We all know that I probably won't do this for 31 days, but here's to wishful thinking...

Day 1 Self Portrait and 5 random facts.

This is my one of my favorite pics, it's from last year, but I was super dark.. My goal is to be this dark again asap. 

1.) My child is my entire world. If I'm away from her for more than a few hours it hurts my heart. She's seriously my best friend. She makes any bad day a good one. She melts my heart with her sweet honesty. If it wasn't for her, there is no telling where my free spirited soul might be today, but I'm glad I'm where I'm at and wouldn't change a thing about it!

So typical of her to make some crazy face. Yep, she's def. my kid and such a diva!

2. ) My body may be here, but my soul is at the beach. If you know me, you know how often I go down, most are very spur of the moment, need to get away trips. I'm obsessed with the feeling I have when I am there, mark my words.. I will reside on the coast one day.

3.) I love sports. Period. All of them. But, I bleed Crimson! Roll Tide. I'm also a huge Braves and Saints fan!

4.) I'm obsessed with country music. If you follow me on Twitter you know this by all my lyrical tweets. Most of you won't understand this, but when I listen to songs, the music and lyrics really hit me in my soul. 

5.) The past few weeks I have been working hard to get in shape (like I've ever been before). I've been eating healthy and hitting the gym every weekday morning. I"m not weighing myself, I don't care how much weight I lose, I just wanna be able to rock any outfit I choose!

:)

What's been up the past 5 months..

I really, really, REALLY suck at blogging. Like REALLY. But I’ve become completely obsessed with it. I love reading them, and wish I took the time to do mine.

So here’s what’s up…

I left off in November, saying what I was thankful for. BTW, I did what I was thankful for on FB, everyday.. I didn’t just stop on day 2! My parents come home, It had been 9 months since I had seen my Mama. I missed her so much, but I missed my baby brother way more. That kid has my heart. Although technically I see them every week, thank you apple for facetime, I want to be able to put my arms around him. I want to let him drive me around and go fishing and have Sunday lunch. Ok, enough of that before my waterworks kick on. It’s too early for all that. The point I was trying to make is I miss him, it’s been way too long since I saw that sweet face of his. Christmas came and went, and my kid is spoiled, as if you didn’t already know this. I turned 25, womp womp….no biggie. Kensley is turning into quiet the little ballerina/tapper, she thinks she needs to teach mom some of her moves, and def. tells me when I don’t do them right. AND last, but not least, this is week 2 of me going to the gym. Yes, I know you all are probably like, WTH, but I actually feel sooo much better. Well, after about the first two hours. If I ate right I would probably lose a ton, but im too fat, and I love food way to much. I eat really good throughout the week but then on the weekend, throw that ish out the window.. It’s a start though. 

Now that I’ve caught this thing up, here’s to trying to keep it update.. We’ll see how well it goes!

Day 2: Thankful for a healthy child!

Kensley gives me fits in the morning. Like, every single morning. I'm not a morning person either, so I know where she gets it from, but still. So this morning, she's throwing one of fits and she gets in trouble. She is boo hoo crying as we are leaving and I get down in the floor and just hug her. I tell her I'm sorry for getting upset with her and I love her. When we get to school she clings to me, not wanting me to leave her. After about 10 minutes of that, the teacher finally comes to my rescue, so I'm not too late for work. As I walk down the hall way, the tears start to roll. I cried all the way to work because I was impatient with her and had a very "unglued" moment.

As I rode to work, Brad Paisley's song came on, " One of those lives" if you haven't heard it, it's a good one. It's about how an average guy complains about his day when there are people out there fighting for their lives. Oh, how true this is. Some people have to spend there days in children's hospital, while I get to enjoy my days at home with my healthy little girl. Life is too short to take one second for granted. Be thankful for the small things.

Day 1: Thankful for Good Morals

With thanksgiving right around the corner, I want ALL my post this month to be about things I am thankful for. I have a million and one things to be thankful for, so I'm sure I won't get them all covered. But here it goes...

I am thankful my family raised me with good morals.

Yesterday, I talked a little about friendship. Last night while trick or treating I went to visit a friend whom I have been friends with my entire life. I have always considered her my best friend. While there last night the topic of cheating come up and I told her, "If you ever cheat on your husband, I'm not going to be friends with you anymore." I love her husband, he comes from a good family and is truly a great guy.

No truer words than, "Be a best friend, tell the truth & overuse I love, go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common sense, never let your praying knees get lazy, and love like crazy!"

Why people people lie and cheat to/on someone they "love" baffles me. If you can't be honest with someone you love or are in a relationship with then chances are you shouldn't be with them. It breaks my heart that people cheat. If you don't want to be with me, or you want to be with someone else, don't cheat on me. Break up with me, leave me, whatever. I honestly don't know when society thought it was acceptable to do this? More and more people it seems like on a daily basis are cheating. It breaks my heart for everyone effected by this!

Just thinking...

So, what is your definition of a friend? I have learned over the years, that my definition of a word isn't always everyone else's definition.

My definition of a friend: Someone who you love, listen to, and are there for and they do those same things in return. Someone who will always tell you the truth even when it hurts. Someone you can call up at 3 AM and cry to for hours, even when they have to be at work the next morning, Someone who will call you out when your in the wrong, but love you anyway and vice versa. Among many other things.

I've learned a lot about loyalty over the years, someone who is there for you no matter what. Someone you can BET on that's gonna have your back. But as we grow up we establish new friendships. We grow apart of some we have held on to for years. It's part of life and it's part of growing up. I wouldn't trade my friendships for the world, at the same time we have to stand on the side of right and wrong. Don't stand by and let someone get hurt. Do what's right by everyone, not just by your friend. Put them in their place if they are doing wrong. That's what you're there for. We all want to use that same old line, "mind your own business" but if roles were reversed, wouldn't you want someone watching out for you??

Unpredictable life.

So, let me to tell you about my week..
I'm writing this after being awake for 27 hours to start things off, Kensley started yesterday with sinus junk and coughed and cried all night last night. Sick babies mean no sleep for mommy. I had my very first parent/teacher meeting last night, wow. I don't even like saying that, time goes way faster than you think. Got side swiped this morning by some one that didn't even bother to stop, to get out of her car, or to see if I was okay, much less, "Hey, here's my insurance info since I just hit you!" I drove after her so I could get her tag number. I finally decided once I took a picture on my phone to stop and see how much damage had been done, because her car had a huge dent and scratch half way down it. I was crying hysterically like a crazy person thinking, this is just what else I need, when it rains, it pours, why me, etc. When I walked around my car, not a scratch on it. All I could do was laugh, and thank God. I firmly believe it's because I've spend most of the night talking with God. Like I said, I 've been up all night, no sleep at all. I did a lot of praying and readying my bible. Good things happen when I do this... A few weeks ago, I had some things stolen from the house, found out who took them, and filed a police report this week. I have been so livid about the whole situation, I have not acted the way that I should have. I haven't prayed about it, which should have been the first thing I did. Last night I prayed about it, and I feel comfort over the entire situation. God has a plan, and it will all work out. On top of all that, at least one or two days a week I get in a funk. I miss my mom. I miss my brother. I want them home. I cry. I'm sad. There are so many days I want to pick up the phone after a week like this and vent to my mother. But there are 7 hours difference so when I'm getting off work and can actually call and vent it's midnight there. It sucks. It really sucks. But God let's everything happen for a reason, and I firmly believe them being over there is what's best right now. With that being said, I only have 22 days until I see them for a few days!!!!

Life is crazy and so unpredictable. If you had told me I would be here 6 months ago, I would have said YOU ARE CRAZY. I would have said a lot of things 6 months ago, that aren't true today. But, hey, that's life right?
Thankfuly I have God, and a few good friends that I keep up entirely too late at night venting to, that makes things a little easier!

I’ve pulled up my blog many times to write, and then ended up deleting it or just clicking the “X” at the top of the page.

I haven’t liked the person that I’ve been over the past few weeks and I’ve caught myself realizing it more and more. It’s time I stop, take a breath and step back a minute.  No since in going back down the road I’ve been on, I’ve back slid enough. If you know me, or even if you don’t and you read my blog then you know I don’t do patient. At all. Last night, after a long, stressful, eventful day, I was ready for bed at dusk, my very whiny, tired, exhausted 4 year old wasn’t helping my mood at all. She is 4 going on 14 and every bit of a diva. My fault, I know. So last night after telling her to pick up her toys, and stop throwing her dolls around, she ends up knocking over a drink and a LIT candle. Both spilled everywhere and I. LOST. IT. First of all, I had told her to STOP throwing stuff, and obliviously she doesn’t listen and the end result is mommy mad, Kensley crying,  and a huge mess. After she went to bed last night and the mess was clean, I remembered my reaction to earlier in the night and I cried. I was ashamed. I pulled out my “unglued” book and started at the beginning. I have to figure out this whole patience thing before it is the death of me.  A very special person in my life tells me all the time, “you’re going to miss this” . How true that is. I miss her being little. I know you may think she still is, but she’s smarter than some of my co-workers. Not kidding. I miss the days she couldn’t talk, or walk, I miss the cute little faces she use to do. She is just way too big! I have my very first “parent-teacher conference” tomorrow. Yes, I just said that. Point is, I blinked and 4 years have flown by and it’s bittersweet, but heartbreaking too. I wish there were so many times I could go back over the past 4 years and do-over. Oh, if do-overs were real.

Yesterday, my cousin tweeted, about how beautiful the drive was from Tuscaloosa to Centreville, something I never noticed before. It’s cleaning up after my beautiful, smart, healthy child spills something, and not overacting, because so many people would kill for the opportunity to do that. It’s going to see my great grandmother, and letting Kenlsey get to know her because not many people get say they know and remember there great- great-grandmother. It’s playing Madden with your little brother because you never know how much you’ll miss that when you go 10 months without having the opportunity to. It’s about saying I’m sorry when you should, because you never know the next time you might have a chance to make it right. It’s about thanking God for the things you forget to.  Because I don’t thank him nearly enough, and take way too many things for granted. In writing this I’m overwhelmed with all my many blessings from God and thankful for he has given me.

I'm really, really going to try and be a better blogger, and not  be so sporadic with it.

trying to patiently wait..

I long to be a patient person. I want NOTHING more than to be a patient person. It takes practice. I try my best to practice it, but I never ever seem to succeed. I need patience with every single person in my life, or maybe they need it with me, ha! I only wish I was kidding. The Bible tells you over and over to be patient. In tons of scriptures, it clearly says, "BE PATIENT". Why do I have such a hard time with this?

I work in an office where we take 500+ calls a day, not kidding. I lose it with patients sometime. Not that I ever let it show, but I do hit the mute button and vent to the girl beside me. This week I've lost it with these phone people, every day it has been something. It has been change. Change takes time and it definitely takes patience. Now, if you've been reading my blog before, then you know Kensley and I were just hit with a lot of change. So time and patience is definitely what I need right now. Neither of the two, am I good at. I hate waiting, and we've already established that I'm not patient. I can tell this whole practicing thing though is making me better. I realize when I lose my patience and I ask God to forgive me. It breaks my heart when I lose it with the people I care about, it makes me feel ashamed. I am reminded how patient God is with me and it makes me sad to know that I have a long way to go when it comes to this.

Over the past week my character, patience and faith have all been tested. There are times when I've put full trust in God and said to myself, "He's got this" but there have been other times when I've made myself sick over thinking and worrying about it. Pray about your worries, give it to him. I've to remind myself, and I've got to have faith in him and his timing. I've got to learn to wait patiently for his answer and not to be discouraged when it's not what I expected. He will answer with the perfect answer and the perfect time.

Give it all to him!

"Stressed to the MAX" doesn't even begin to describe how I've felt over the past few days.

But thankfully, "When I am filled with cares, your comfort brings me joy-Pslam 94:19"

I feel like my faith is being tested, and tested hard. I'm okay with that. Not sure what lead me to the book of James last night, but as I started to read, the scriptures hit me.
^"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds,  because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance- James 1:2-3"

I am trusting God with all my cares, and that is all I can do. (Everything before this point was written earlier in the week) God is good. All the time. Since last week, it's been several days from HELL. It started with an email from my attorney, continued with what I thought was a stomach virus, but after 5 days of not being able to eat without getting sick, makes me think it's just nerves. Then we got a completly new phone system at work, most of you may think that's no big deal, if you've ever called in to UOC then you know that we are VERY busy, and new phones that no one knows how to use is def. not a good thing. PLUS, Kensley started pre-school this week, which she loves every single second of it. (Thank you, Jesus!) Since she is ok, Mom is ok too! Among many, many, many other things. After several days of praying, crying, yelling, praying, screaming, praying,crying, pouting, crying, praying,whining, crying and praying, today is good. Yesterday was good too, despite the phone situation. I woke up releived today, feeling like several prayers have been answered, and it's only gotten better! My God is awesome and he is so GOOD! Trust in him with all your heart!

Contentment

God has been putting a lot of things on my heart, and today when writing I planned on sharing some of them. When you live for God, things don't always go the way YOU plan for them to.

I recently picked up a copy of, "The Resolution For Women", it was written in partnership with the creators of the movie, "Courageous". I read a few chapters, all which talked about contentment. I read the words and let them sink in. I took a look at my life, and how things were and thought to myself, "I'm not really content, I want more." I was also reading, "Redeeming Love", my new favorite book. Let's just say, I'm not one for reading two books at once. So, a few chapters is all I got from "The Resolution".

I have You Version on my phone, many of you know it as the "Bible App".
I love it, when I am somewhere and want to look up a verse, I can because I always have my phone. It gives me the "verse of the day" and also has reading plans. There have been several "verses of the day" and several different reading plans I have come across that have all talked about contentment.

Then last night I saw on fb someone past a link from a dear friend, it was a blog. I wanted it to read it, but didn't so I opened it in safari so I could later read it. This morning I read her recent blog post, actually I read the past few, and more than one was about contentment. That's when I knew that's what I needed to share.

This past weekend was a roller coaster ride, so many emotions from Kensley turning 4, last week of NeNe's and also my parents not being here for this huge chapter of our life, among several different things. I have been praying and asking God to give me answers. When a certain situation arose this weekend which wasn't what I expected, all I felt was contentment. I felt this was God's way of giving me the answers I've been looking for. I also felt as though it was completely in God's hands. Now that my relationship with Jesus Christ is on the right road, I have contentment in him. I have read more than once, " Rest in the God who KNOWS the future and ORDAINED it." I love hearing this, reading this, and feeling this. So with this being said, I will trust in the Lord with my future and with his timing.

One of my favorite sayings, it's on my desk at work, it's on my twitter profile, and you see it all over pinterest, " Faith in God, includes Faith in his timing."